all because of you

one neverending ceaseless eternal game of one upmanship
im not even playing anymore
of course they all love you they all want you
and its okay to get someone one day but not now
now is not my time is it not
but it is your fault i am what you hate
no need to put myself down when you do that for me
and you make me want to starve
and starve and starve and purge
until theres nothing left but pink insides and a shrunken heart
so i will.

you're oh

oh, all the joys under the sun (rolled into one)
because you know how much you're worth

sometimes, i wish you didn't.