my heart skips a beat when i see you
but my heart does not beat without you
it seems i am lifeless, lost, completely gone to you
but my head hates you
oh red fiery hate it consumes my thoughts
like lust an addiction i'm addicted to resisting you
you could be anyone who threw a glance my way
a kind word, a hushed whisper
the occassional soft breath, a hitch and i'm under
you are not special in your own right
i made you special i made you special
i made you
never forget this i am these emotions
i am the only reason you will ever be written or remembered
what happens when i take my heart back
to give to someone else compeletely wholly with no restraint
will you fade
will you disappear
or will you become special to someone else
i am life's big question
