it's a no go

vampires and werewolves and graphic novels
no superheroes theres too much kryptonite to let you down
sometimes i think about the end and is it going to be at the barrel of a gun
or fangs or claws or dozens of prize pennies
is most frightening to think of a bed with white sheets
an iv line
a panic button
and nobody at the bedside

the worst feeling is being drunk
and wanting to be drunker
or knowing theyre only talking to you out of face
politeness and god knows what else it might be sympathy
that would be worse
if i could draw id draw myself out
not erase thats too easy
hard lines and scribbles and forcing myself out

honey if you stay ill be forgiven
nothing you can say can stop me going home